In about two weeks I will start in a new job. Though I’m already afraid I have great hopes that it will be a good thing. Having a regularly daily schedule should be better than staying at home all the time and being unsatisfied about how less I yet get done. So, being positive about these […]
Today I posted this picture on facebook. My best friend commented: “Well, then just start doing it.” … Ha, ha, ha! If it would be that easy I WOULD just do it. Somedays I really try to survive somehow. Like yesterday and earlier today when the urge to release the tension and anxiety inside of me […]
I don’t know how to stand this any longer. This wish, this urge to cut myself. I’m so restless and this anxiety spreading around in my stomach makes me sick and crazy. It would be such a relief seeing the blood dripping, knowing I’d instantly feel better. BUT, the problem is I don’t want to […]
I hate myself. I hate myself for doing nothing, for just hanging around. And today I lost my battle. I lost the battle against my own thoughts. Just one day I wanted – tried so hard – not to think about my moods. Just live and doing the stuff I’m supposed to do. But I […]
I’m in a constant battle between opening up to someone and the fear of bothering them and being rejected. As I already mentioned in a comment I actually don’t have any friends. Well, there is this one guy I dated a few times and in these times I felt at least somehow stable. But I’ve never […]
Thoughts of a Lost Princess 