Today my boss told me that we’re going to have a talk tomorrow as I am now working there since 4 weeks – just a review, he said. But I can’t stop thinking about it. I am full of fear and shame of some few mistakes I’ve made. No serious mistakes at all, yet I […]
In about two weeks I will start in a new job. Though I’m already afraid I have great hopes that it will be a good thing. Having a regularly daily schedule should be better than staying at home all the time and being unsatisfied about how less I yet get done. So, being positive about these […]
Today I posted this picture on facebook. My best friend commented: “Well, then just start doing it.” … Ha, ha, ha! If it would be that easy I WOULD just do it. Somedays I really try to survive somehow. Like yesterday and earlier today when the urge to release the tension and anxiety inside of me […]
Should I? Should I not? Since I’m awake today I’m considering whether I want to join the traditional ‘Christmas-Cookies-Reunion’ with our ex-neighbours or not. Actually I’d rather stay at home, alone, not having to talk to anyone. But I know it would be better for me to go out, meet people, have some distraction from […]
I don’t know how to stand this any longer. This wish, this urge to cut myself. I’m so restless and this anxiety spreading around in my stomach makes me sick and crazy. It would be such a relief seeing the blood dripping, knowing I’d instantly feel better. BUT, the problem is I don’t want to […]
Thoughts of a Lost Princess 